Okay. Let’s just talk about it and get it over with.
Since I was about 14 years old I’ve perpetually been on a diet. I’ve never been a skinny girl. I grew up being made fun of, yo-yo dieting and at the ripe age of 32 have decided that being on a diet and being required to work out is just who I am and that the older I get, the more I’m going to need to do it.
Add in having a baby and you’ve got yourself a real disaster when you’re me. Now… I have done well. I gained 40 pounds in my pregnancy. I’m pretty sure the majority of it was Jack, but otherwise it was all water in my feet. I lost 25 pounds very quickly, within just a couple weeks. The rest kind of melted away a bit at a time and I am PROUDLY at the weight I was when I got pregnant a bit over a year ago now. However… things are… different. While losing the weight somehow seems to be going a lot better this time around, I definitely need to get back to the gym to start toning things up. I miraculously talked my DH into letting me stay at my gym (which is a big ol’ chain club here in the Twin Cities that pretty much took over all the other chains). I just can’t let go of my classes!! Now… to find the time to actually get to them. I am hoping that my hub will get inspired to go and workout there as well once we get the membership stuff figured out. I think it will be a great place for our family once Jack gets a little older.
As I write this I am thinking how many times over I will have to get the motivation back over the course of my life. I hate that I wasn’t born with a great metabolism. I hate that I have to work so hard at this. I envy those that don’t have to try or eat whatever and as much as they want. I do know that I have done it before and will do it again- let’s just hope that I can get it to stick this time around and don’t have to start over from scratch. We are starting to discuss TTC #2. Reason being that it took us 2 1/2 years to conceive Jack. We can either wait, have it take another 2 1/2 years and I’ll be freakin’ ancient by the time I conceive again, or we can just get started and take our chances. If it happens early, we’ll have our hands full, but if it takes awhile, I won’t be so old! Reason I bring up TTC and pregnancy is that I want terribly to be in good shape for my next pregnancy. I didn’t necessarily struggle with Jack (I was sick for the most of the first half), but the pelvic pain would’ve been more manageable had I been in better shape. That said- I have much different intentions next time around!
Check back in tonight as I tear apart tonight’s American Idol hopefuls!