Insomniac Rant

Insomniac Rant

For 10 days, I haven’t been able to sleep. I couldn’t really understand why because I LOVE to sleep. Nobody understands and treasures their sleep more than a mom. We are fortunate that our kiddo is an awesome sleeper, but it wasn’t always that way. So when it comes to a full night’s sleep? I don’t take it for granted. Then, I was struck by this horrific bout of insomnia. As in full on staring at the ceiling trying to will the sleep to come. Last night was the worst. Sleep never came. I dozed off around 4:30am. My alarm went off at 5:30. I was a wreck today. Wandering like a zombie. Now I’m home. The kid is in bed. Here I am. Awake. Blogging. I must be insane. I’m going to fight it tonight thought- there is a Unisom upstairs in my bedroom with my name on it. After doing some digging at 2:30am last night I found that my antibiotic, Levaquin, for my neverending sinus infection is the cause. I didn’t notice it listed in the side effects all this time, but there it was. As bold as can be. I have no idea when it will wear off, but I hope soon. I miss being able to fall asleep within minutes of my head hitting the pillow.

I’m going to switch directions, because that’s what the Mixed Bag of Rant is all about. It is sleep related though. My “friend”, you know the one who somehow assumed her newborn daughter would be a perfect sleeper, still isn’t sleeping. Her daughter turns a year old in a little over a month and they have yet to sleep through the night. She says it is because she is sick (seems she has been sick for the past 11 months). She claims she has tried everything and that her daughter is just stubborn. She has not tried crying it out though. I warned her that at this age, her daughter has taken control of mom and dad and that she should try the Ferber method as it is the more friendly version of crying it out. She said she didn’t think she could do it and then mentioned her Pediatrician suggested the book “Solve Your Child’s Sleep Problems”. I chuckled and said, “You mean the book by RICHARD FERBER?” I didn’t mean to do the invisible mama eye roll, but I couldn’t help it. She was SO convinced that my way was wrong. I’m not saying my way is the right way. I know that Ferber or full on Babywise crying it out is not right for everyone, but don’t say you’ve tried everything when you haven’t. Ferber was the only thing that worked and the last thing we tried. It was hard. I literally sat outside the door to his room with a death grip on the video monitor watching him in agony as he cried. Without the video monitor, I couldn’t have done it. He is a GREAT sleeper now and the persistence paid off. Now that he’s 2.3 years old? He’s discovered the “Just one more mommy,” begging. He screams when he goes to bed for all of about 30 seconds, grabs his puppy, pulls his blanket over and goes to sleep. Even at 1 to 2 years old these little kiddos are smart. If you give them an inch they will take a mile and it will only lead to super hard habits to break down the road if you keep giving in. Do I like hearing him cry? NO!! I hate it and cringe every night but he needs to know that we are the ones in charge- mom and dad call the shots and he more than understands what is going on- otherwise he wouldn’t give up so quickly. He knows.  In my crazy incoherent rant,  if I can offer any mommy advice here- it is to start a nightly routine as early as possible and stick to it.

I warned that this would be an insomniacs wicked wild rant! Did any of it make sense? Ha! Didn’t think so. Going to work on my sweet dreams now.

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